LOWEST POINT OF LIFE (AS OF 4/7/2024)

 Hai peeps. I can say that this is the lowest point of my life coz I don't see myself going anywhere in the future. Life is like pointless at the moment. I gave up on myself. I got CAD exam tomorrow and I still haven't learn a thing. I have a flu right now. Don't feel like learning. Been spending too much time in Instagram, Facebook, Threads and Netflix. Don't feel like socializing. I don't wish to meet anyone. I don't feel motivated. I wanna go home even though I'll not be able to binge-watch all the movies in the list. I've been adding movies into the bucket list and I'll binge-watch them right after exam finishes and even before that. Is it bad that I am not good at what I am right now? I can't see myself be a good employee later on because I don't want to evolve. I refuse to think. Thinking used to be fun. But at the moment, it's not. What do I do? I's rather be a cleaner that doesn't require thinking. (I should be careful of my words coz I'm afraid it will be manifested unconsciously). Anyway, I need a wakeup call. I don't know how can I get out of all this kind of thought. It's a bad thought. In the past, I aspire to be a functioning person in the community and right now I'm in the road of failing. I got to go. 

Anyway I think this is much better than Threads because I get distracted easily there. However, there is no such function as small dumpings here. I need to write a blog in order to publish anything and I don't really want to publish a whole blog just for a quote.